Posted on Sunday, 7th June 2009 by Bcarter
I can’t believe it has been over 9 months since I’ve posted on this blog, but I guess it has been. I kind of went through a streak of being down on myself and such. I ended up with a kind of anxiety when it comes to writing, instead of writing for myself, I was writing for others and that just can’t be anymore. Q and I have had our ups and downs throughout this time, but as far as controlling his gambling addiction is concerned things have been more up than down.
Q went almost 7 months before slipping a couple of times last month, but the slips weren’t major and he knows what he needs to do to keep from slipping again. I guess this was another reason why I stopped posting, I felt secure with how he was doing. Letting my guard down does need to be done in order for Q to feel like he is earning my trust back, but I only need to show that, not necessarily think it in the back of my head.